let's start at the very beginning or the strange case of supernatural

my first blog. wow. this is a rather momentous occasion for a girl with a long standing fear of the internet gaining sentience and killing us all. awaiting the skynet apocalypse and yet feeding the massive belly of its antecedent. oh well, la-ti-dah.

so why start a blog?

in short, the television made me do it. no, really. here's how it went down.

a few months ago, my friend todd and i were at work having geek bonding time, as is our tradition. he turned to me at one point and spoke the life-changing words, "so have you started watching "stupid-natural" yet?" i had no idea what he was talking about, which in this arena of esoterica is pretty unusual. i have an uncanny and completely useless ability to remember film and tv trivia. i know random facts about shit that i would never watch and am not remotely interested in. if i hear/read something once, it stays put in my brain. (unfortunately, this is only true of showbiz trivia and not rocket science or auto mechanics.) in any case, i had never even heard of supernatural, but to appease todd's query, i watched the episode that aired the next week. i found it charming enough to ask for the first season of dvds.

a month later, i had zoomed through all 4 1/2 seasons. hello, new obsession!

now, i've had some pretty ridiculous media infatuations before, i.e. val kilmer, n sync, buffy, bsg. they all pale in comparison to this. the stars have to align for such affinities to exist, and my life was changing in just the right ways for this particular piece of art to resonate like a big ole gong of war.

it's just a tv show, sure. but it has impacted me in a serious way. it has reawakened parts of me i thought long gone and made me reassess my life goals. it has made me appreciate the creative abilities of the masses and inspired me to write again. it has helped me hold my life together at a time when i could have completely fallen apart. it has made me lustful beyond all reason :-)

my point is, things only have the value that we imbue them with and this show has become a talisman of sorts. i use it as my happy place; whenever i'm feeling overwhelmed or sad, i can daydream about the winchesters and everything seems better. when i recently found myself lacking a social life, i reached out to the internet and found the supernatural fandom. suddenly i had something in common with thousands of fangirls. i don't know these women and to date i haven't met another female supernatural fan in person, but we all understand and share this devotion to the show and it's periphery. there is undoubtedly a community spirit.

which is probably the best thing to come of the internet. aside from free porn, obvs.

so now i am contributing to this world wide web of information and tomfoolery. the feeling is akin to participating in a census; standing up and being counted as part of something. i am part of the information age and the internet. if humanity leaves anything behind, i kinda hope it's this, for within the ethereal confines of the net lie all the beauty, misery, obsession and hope of (wo)mankind.

anyway, welcome to the quiet life. i'll be over there in the corner with a book. probably day dreaming about the winchester boys.